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mémoires aigres-douces

the bittersweet forbidden little kiss

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(no subject)	[Sep. 25th, 2009\|11:15 am]
it's the third week now, and i'm just getting myself adapted to the whole we're-no-longer-in-sch... BUT, it's a sudden change now that i'm soooooooooooooooo not used to when i've just gotten used to the routine of the first two weeks. how bout that? how sucky can it still get...? obviously, i am very much aware that its not gonna be easy, but then again, i'm human. i need time to adapt slowly. its like a rollercoaster ride right now and i hardly caught my breath. that sudden emptiness lingers ...
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(no subject)	[Sep. 24th, 2009\|01:20 pm]
I JUST THOUGHT THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW, SOMETIMES IT HURTS. we had a small squabble last night and i rmbed very clearly that boyf said 'sometimes i'm confused when you do things...' actually, i'm aware of the confusion but what often gets me annoyed is, it seems to me that he isnt putting in enough effort to try to understand why i am acting/reacting that particular way. i'm impressed and am very proud of myself, i was so agitated last night, as if a bomb was gonna explode in no time but somehow i managed to fuse my anger in time. he looked at me with a puzzled look and said 'why are you acting as if its alright right now?' i was quick to ans and the only reason i had was, why shld i get all-so-pissed when at the end of the day, he's just gonna look at me wondering why am i throwing my temper again, being unreasonable etc... and still, he doesnt understand. i felt that i've grown alot from this relationship, i've learnt to be more patient cause not everyones' mind can come up with an ans as quick as mine, to control my temper cause not everyone understands or might misinterpret what i'm trying to imply etc... one thing that i'm pretty disappointed in is, after being together for 6mths plus, somehow it doesnt seem to me like he understands me when i'm just me. a girl who looks for nothing but love, care, concern, sensitivity, understanding, rational yet cheers me up despite me being happy or upset. it prolly doesnt sound alot to me, but i knw that its alot for him altogether. we're learning as we go along =)) *
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(no subject)	[Sep. 18th, 2009\|01:46 pm]
I WANT I WANT! I'VE BEEN WANTING SINCE A LONG LONG WHILE =(( blackbird fly - pink. black slim devil wide & white slim angel wide.
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(no subject)	[Sep. 17th, 2009\|12:37 pm]
something happened ytd that caused me to cry myself to slp once again. it's been so long since i last cried my heart out. woke up this morning feeling like crap with swollan eyes and my body feeling the crappest. i'm supposed to meet the bestfriend at 1, but i'm not ready and in any condition to leave house now, so i've pushed back the time. hopefully, i can take my mind off things ltr. need it so badly! a few days back i dreamt that i was carrying a baby, how innocent and all just looking at me. decided to search for the meaning. PS: a few posts back, i dreamt about partying and i dreamt about partying yet again ytd. i think i've been pretty coped up, need to relax and release those tensions building up inside =(( back to where i was, dreaming about carrying a baby... the meaning was rather meaningful, i felt. To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses. If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|11:23 am]

ytd saw us celebrating our 6th monthasary, with very simple plans for the day.
Sushi Teh at Town, visiting Aaron at his workplace, chilling at Starbucks, dinner with the guys and back to his nest to watch some stupid but hilarious production of Singapore.

just something to share. on our way to Town, i heard this particular song playing over the radio and i got quite addicted to it.

it wasnt easy these 6mths, both you and i had to go through things we never expected to, our trust and faith was put to the test over and over again these 6mths. as much as we thought of giving up, we didnt, and i'm really thankful we didnt decide to.

the road ahead will never be easy for sure, the transition period and adaptation we have to go through, but i believe we're much stronger now to walk through it together. to begin with, no one said getting into a new reationship will be easy =))

one thing's for sure, the amount of pain and hurt i've been through these 6mths, i still love you. i'm learning now, that my past shall stay as my past. on my part, i will definitely work towards my goal of healing that inner scarred self, learn to be more patient and control my temper.

i'm not perfect, but i'm willing to learn as we walk the days ahead together.

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